I wrote a quite lengthly post for today. It had thought and passion and was very in line with the content that I try to post here and most who would have read it would not have had any second thoughts about it's presence here.
Except, it was about "the blog." Mondays are supposed to be a day where I do something indulgent for other mamas, or share a reflection related to motherhood/womanhood; they are reserved for Mama Musings.
This almost-post is indicative of where I am in life right now and what I need to work on. While I have been good about structuring myself so that I have some time alone, I am often tempted to spend that time on things that aren't for me. Between starting a new business, completely purging every corner of my home, working on master's level courses, writing this blog, and being a mom to a wild and crazy girl, all of the time that I had allocated for "me time" ended up getting filled up with activities and thoughts for others.
Can you relate?
So today, I'm committing to half an hour every day for pure indulgence. You read that right. Half an hour every day just for me, nothing productive or "for others." I've fallen off of waking up three hours before Miss G, but am going to start that again so that I don't guilt myself or get too busy in other tasks to give myself 30 minutes. (OK, a caveat: that half an hour might "look" productive in terms of aesthetics, self-love, reading a good book, maybe even working on a hobby, but for me, not productive means it doesn't check something off a to-do list. Its self-serving.)
I'm even thinking of making a little list or jar of ideas for when I'm tempted to give up my half-hour for other pursuits. Ideas that are just too irresistible not to spend half an hour indulging in... Any suggestions?